My Thoughts.

No one really knows how I feel about anything, I may come off as if I’m strong, but really I’m not. I’m tired of putting up an act. Sometimes I just wish you can text me, just one time by accident or something. But, I know that will never happen. I don’t know, its just a weird feeling. Sometimes I rather you not be in my life, but than sometimes i wish you were still here. It sucks not going to anyone to share some exciting news with, but i got used that. So its whatever. I just feel like I can have someone there, who doesn’t annoy me. I wish I can go back and change everything, but I can’t. I wished I still had a friendship with you, or even try to work out something. But I highly doubt it will happen. I just hope I did everything for the right reasons, with good intentions. I don’t know, I guess it is what it is.

We’ve been friends for about four years..we were so close. We lost contact with each other, but we finally reconnected again last year. It was great between us. I loved the friendship we had. Somewhere down the lie, I fell for you, but you can’t lie you didn’t feel the same. But moving on; we stopped talking outta nowhere, after we chilled that day, & that my friend was YOUR FAULT. If you knew I liked you, you wouldn’t make it awkward between us, you would still be chilled with it. & outta nowhere you cut me off, for what reason? YOU HAD NO EXCUSE TO CUT ME OFF. So I was the bigger person, & I hit you up..and you quickly ended the convo between us..so fuck that. & THAN you accidentally text me saying some bullshit, but it was for the wrong cindy. GTFO. You haven’t text me for like two months, and all of a sudden its the wrong cindy. & I’m not stupid..I know how the blackberry messages go..I have one myself. -.- From all of what has happened, you’re fucking fake. -_____-